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Need a break badly. Semester has been too long and taxing.

Finished assignments, exams in 1 weeks time, too little time for too many things.

30 days

30 days to change to greater heights. One more layer of my to be examined and checked out. Hopefully my last, probably my last, but not guaranteeing it.

Should be rather mild, but to be safe, 30 days is just alright.

Pray for me again.

Oh, and on another note, my good friend here has some health problem, and unfortunately details would not be disclosed here, but again, please pray along with me. I think its not that serious, but sometimes it appears to be so.

dictionary

Looking up God's dictionary......

Love : When extended to the unlovable.

Joy : Ability to be cheerful in the darkest hours.

Peace : Staying calm and secure when the world collapses around you.

Patience : to bear up under difficult circumstances, not with a passiveness, but with a hopefulness that resists negative thinking.

Kindness: the ability to act for the welfare of those taxing your patience.

Courage : To stand firm when you are all alone, abandoned and fearful.

Humility : To confess your pride and sin to one another.

Strength : Showing meekness, gentleness to the weaker

Self-Control : virtue of mastering one's sensual desires and emotions, given the overwhelming temptations.

Goodness = Godness

Evil = 1. absence of goodness
2. perversion of goodness
3. imitation, fakery of goodness
4. boasting of goodness

Integrity : The sustaining of all the virtues above.

Good character : Long-term sustanance of integrity.


: )

brief

een extremely busy with studies. Not only that, assignments are being handed out as well.

Good thing is the wednesday meal is less hectic and getting the hang of it now. Not only that, have been able to make some good friends in ICF, much to my relief.

Its another indian guy, hahahaha. Goes to gym and would like to learn to play squash too. There's another 2 more indian girl too in ICF, which i would like to get acquainted with as well.

What are the odds??????

( After being seperated from my in-gang, well, for geographical reason and one stupid's reason, looks like there's another one right here, waiting for me all this while in the chaplaincy. :) I feeel so relieved, and comforted... you cannot imagine how much its helping me, just the knowledge of their presence in the chaplaincy, and hopefully to build good friendships with them as well....
Really think that i will have an indian girlfriend, haha. )

Thats all for the casual stuffs.

As for the serious stuffs........

Jars of Clay

http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=grJR-7FkoWc&feature=related

"Flood"

Rain, rain on my face
It hasnt stopped raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly I become one with the mud

Chorus:

But if I cant swim after forty days
And my mind is crushed by the thrashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
Lift me up
Lift me up - when Im falling
Lift me up - Im weak and Im dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - keep me from drowning again

Downpour on my soul
Splashing in the ocean, Im losing control
Dark sky all around
I cant feel my feet touching the ground

[chorus]

Calm the storms that drench my eyes
Dry the streams still flowing
Cast down all the waves of sin
And guilt that overthrow me

[chorus]

Lift me up - when Im falling
Lift me up - Im weak and Im dying
Lift me up - I need you to hold me
Lift me up - keep me from drowning again


This sing describes me and my prayers completely in the last 2 months, to superb accuracy.

And yeah, Scotland's weather is super crap, it rained from 12 noon to 10pm now... And the wind is madness...
Lift me up I prayed, and I am now lifted up, to greatness..

Creed - My own prison.

"My own prison"

A court is in session, a verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today
Just my own sin
The walls are cold and pale
The cage made of steel
Screams fill the room
Alone I drop and kneel
Silence now the sound
My breath the only motion around
Demons cluttering around
My face showing no emotion
Shackled by my sentence
Expecting no return
Here there is no penance
My skin begins to burn

(And I said oh) So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
(And I said oh) We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one

I hear a thunder in the distance
See a vision of a cross
I feel the pain that was given
On that sad day of loss
A lion roars in the darkness
Only he holds the key
A light to free me from my burden
And grant me life eternally

Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time

(And I said oh) So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
(And I said oh) We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one


I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison
I cry out to God
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison

(And I said oh) So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
(And I said oh) We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one

Arghhh

I wish i am more mature............ : S

Blowing people up again.

Fulls stop.

random

Sometimes, i wish i kept certain things to myself. I really do.

I hate being right all the time.

I wish i was at home.

Anyone up for some ice-cream now?

My first song.

Wretched Man

Verse 1

I long to see you glory,
Shining in this place.
Your face O Lord, is what i seek
In the quietness to hear you speak.

Bridge
I bow down,
I bow down.

Chorus
Your Grace, is all I need,
when you bled, on Calvary,
for a wretched man like me,
I stand in awe.
Come Lord Jesus, pour in me,
Your love and your mercy
That all men are drawn to Thee,
and glorify Your name.

Verse 2
A glimpse of You had set me free.
Your radiant light surrounded me.
Lifted me from my sin and shame,
before your throne I sing Your praise.

3 years

August 13, 2005.

I lost something that day, and had never been able to recover it ever since then, i guess it died and was subdued along the way.

It died, burnt to ashes.

Lately there has been smouldering in that pile of ashes, more accurately, Sunday night.

Its still very small.

But its coming back, I can feeeeeel it in my soul.

I am coming back, I am coming back. I am coming back.

Massue

There has been 2 events take has taken place so far, and i got to say it has been carried out extremely well. Gotta thank Mr Sze for being understanding of my situation and carrying things out as best as they can be.

Managed to catch up with a few good old friends during Raya, which was really good.

YAY!

PRAISE GOD!!!!!

Didnt I tell ya, that miracles do happen?????????

WOHOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG, just cannot believe it!!!!!!!!!!!! Its just sooooooooooooooooooo amazing!!!